End of Autumn

There is a bush in the garden, the name of which I can never remember. It has clusters of tiny white flowers and small pointed leaves. At the start of autumn its leaves slowly turn gold. Suddenly, you'll notice that the top of the shrub has turned red. And then one day, usually around Samhain, you go outside and almost all the leaves will have dropped off overnight. All my life, that has signalled the end of any kind of warm weather. Other trees and plants might continue to boast amber hues, but the colour seems half-lie after that. This morning the leaves had dropped, and Mum and I spent what few daylight hours there were trying to get the last of the plants in. They should have been long-since in, and the bulbs besides, but the wet, miserable weather kept up from the garden. My big task today was getting the two clematis in. Mum physically lacks the strength and balance to weild a spade now, and the clay claggy soil was waterlogged. The spots we wanted them in were long-term "lawn" spots too. The sum meaning that I had to dig a much bigger hole than you'd imagine a clematis would need, and in the worst conditions. However, they now have a chance of surviving even our scheduled bitter winter.

Tomorrow I finally have a psychology appointment. I asked for help originally in December/January, and was assessed in March. I finally caved to the antidepressants in May. And at the start of November I'll hopefully get the help I need.

Since October was my birthday month, Ravelry has been amazing! At the start of the month I recieved two patterns, one for the Rusalka Cowl, which I'm half-way through crocheting in a lovely warm aran wool in cream, and one for the Belinda Vest. I started chatting to the Raveler who sent the vest pattern and when she discovered I had yet to obtain an aran weight yarn for the pattern, she offered me one she hadn't a use for. It arrived a week before my birthday - a lovely hazy soft purple - along with a birthday card! On the actual day of my birthday, asides from being overwhelmed by good wishes, I recieved an entire e-book of patterns containing two of the shawl patterns in the top of my wish list! The other two patterns (also for shawls) are beautiful too. Once my vest and cowl are finished for me to snuggle down in this winter, I shall have fun selecting which lace yarns from my stash will be lucky enough to be worked up!

On my birthday I had a lovely quiet day. All the exciting stuff (my usual trip through to Glasgow) was conducted the previous week so that I might attend the Glasgow School of Yarn. So it was nice to know that I had nothing to do. No laundry or chores, no appointments, no babysitting. Mum had to go out and I sat crocheting with the telly for a bit and then the critters and I went for a lovely nap in the living room. Mum came back with a birthday bouquet of yellow roses which have delighted me every time I catch sight of their sunny fanfare. We had fish-n-chips for tea and instead of a cake we had a huge strawberry tart each. I made Mum sing the birthday song. It was a good day for turning 28.

More twitches today. Including a rather uncomfortable total upper torso twitch. Mum was there for that one and reminded me what my sisters said - not to fight it. I made myself relax and it soon passed but my neck is a bit painful from where I was resisting at first. :-(

And my computer's wifi is still down, hence the absense of any photos from the last few weeks. Hopefully will get it up and running again before the new wheel arrives!